I am Enough.

I recently watched a really powerful video, a ted talk done by Brene Brown. It is called "The Power of Vulnerability."

(Here's the link of the ted talk: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCvmsMzlF7o)

I come from this culture, this upbringing, this society where being vulnerable is "shame." Showing your true self to others, is something to be laughed upon, mocked upon. I've been through it, almost quite every day of my life. From parents, to close friends, to near relatives, to everyone I've known. They always say, "That's not you." Even right now, writing this, that thinking about 'what-would-others-say-when-they-read-this' pops up.

Half A Love - Chap. 6

Avery’s POV

“Avery and Jimin!” Called the professor before, I could even answer Jimin’s question.

“Yes?” we both said in unison.

“How is the project going so far? I just came to see how you both are doing.” Said the professor calmly.

Before I could even answer the professor, Jimin just jumped in and explained what we were doing.

“Very good,” said the professor impressed with our work so far, “Work like this, and you both will succeed. You both make a good pair,” dropped the professor with a smile and left.

There was an awkward pause before Jimin spoke again, “Umm…so about the-“

Before he even finished his sentence, I cut him off unexpectedly, “Yes…yes I want too!” without even looking at him.

“Oh okay cool..” He said with a surprise, but I could see a smile forming on his lips.

Why did I say yes though? Ugh, its just coffee, not a date or anything…plus I’m over him…right?

Half A Love - Chap 5

Jimin’s POV

I checked my phone a multiple times, to see if she messaged me. Wait, why am I even so concerned about that? She will reply, why am I being so impatient geez, as if I’m her boyfriend…GOD JIMIN STOP!!

“Good morning everyone” I heard her voice. That sweet, warm voice. Why did that bring a smile on my face?

“Oh..Hi…” she said looking towards me.

“Hey!” I said with a smile, though I was panicking inside. Jimin, seriously what is wrong with you?! I thought.

After hearing that she gave a weak smile and turned away and went to her office. Oh well…i guess we aren’t that of good friends….yet.

Half A Love - Chap. 4

[Omg Finally an update on this blog! LOL well here's chap 4 of Half a Love! Happy Reading!! :D]

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“Did I really see him?” Avery thought, while staring at her computer screen. “Oh whatever, it’s not like I’ll see him often anyway, plus I’m over him, I have too..” she thought with a sigh and planned to sleep because she has to wake up early the next morning for her internship.

Right as she lay in her bed, her phone beeped.

“Hey.” It said. It was a message from an unknown number.

“Who is this?” she replied back, Avery wasn’t really paying attention to it even if it was unusual to receive a message from an unknown number.

“Jimin. Can we talk?” it said.

“HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!” Avery thought. “HOW DID HE GET MY NUMBER?” Avery got up and traced back and forth trying to figure out how he got her number. She rechecked her phone and read the message out loud again, “JIMIN. CAN WE TALK?”

“NOO!” she exclaimed loudly and fell on the bed, covering her face with the pillow.

“Hey?” her phone beeped again.

She didn’t reply to him. She closed her eyes and ended up falling asleep instead….

Questioned Heart (Ch 16 - Final)

I hope everyone is having a great break! Its a festive season and exciting time for everyone! I have one great announcement, which is that "Questioned Heart" will have its final chapter so you guys will  finally know how this ends! It took me 2 years to finish this (sorry XD). I hope everyone enjoys this and my other stories that I have posted here! Here it goes...Happy Reading! ^_^

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Days past and there was no sign of Jen. Elivare had vanished too by that point. Eugene and Alex were utterly confused but they thought to keep up with their plans. They started to look for Jen again. They asked her mother, her friend, they asked everyone connected to her but no one knew where she was. 

One day while Alex was away, Eugene was all by himself. He started to feel strange all of a sudden as if someone was creeping behind him. He turned around and there was no one. A few seconds later he felt a weird sensation on his shoulder but still there was no one. After a while Eugene ignored it and went to sleep instead. 

Questioned Heart (Ch. 15)

"No one seems to be on my side," thought Jen. "How am I going to make Elivare agree with me. I need to show her what they are planning. I can't believe this is happening."
"Believe what happening, Jen?" Asked Eugene out of nowhere.
"Oh hey. Nothing!" Jen said with a fake smile.
"How you feeling? Everything okay?" He asked with concern.
"Yeah everything is fine. I should practice now."
"Oh yeah, lets go."

This fake act went on for months. There was no sign of Elivare. Jen was getting nervous now. Is this the way her life was going to end? The guy she truly loved, has betrayed her and will take her twin's life away too. What is Jen going to do now?

"It hurts, but I can't let this stop me from making things right," Jen thought.
"Oh, look who is here all by herself," smirked Elivare. Finally after so long she appeared in front of Jen.
"Come with me," said Jen, taking Elivare's hand, she took her where Eugene and Alex were talking.
"What are you doing Jen? Are you not scared of me anymore?! Wha-WHat?!" Elivare was really shocked and confused. She was about to attack Jen when suddenly she heard Eugene talk.
"Jen's fighting skills are really good now. Do you think we should tell her to start planning on killing Elivare? Our plan seems to be working so far. Everyone will think Jen killed her twin anyway. No one will find out the truth."
"Yeah, I think you should. But before that do something romantic for Jen so she will get captivated by your so called love," said Alex with an evil laugh.

Elivare couldn't believe what she just heard. "Look at this Elivare. You and I are not enemies here. They are OUR enemy. We should be a team here. We need to find why we got separated. I have a feeling that they are the reason. WE have to decide quick, we don't have much time."Jen tried to convince her.

"Jen..I don't know whats going on. Is this for real?" Elivare looked pale and shaken. The strong warrior now seemed like a weak puppet. Jen was stunned. "Elivare, I am here. Please don't see me as your enemy. I am your twin sister, please believe in me. I have a plan, lets go."

Questioned Heart (Ch. 14)

"Hey Jen. Jen, wake up" said Eugene.
"Hey," said Jen slowly opening her eyes. She felt weak and she couldn't get up properly.
"You will be alright Jen."
"I know Eugene, I know I will."

Questioned Heart (Ch.13)

*Finally some updates on Questioned Heart! :D Happy Reading!*

She flew up and then in a second fell badly on the ground with a thump. Her body was slowing accepting her wings but she still didn't have much strength.

Couple of weeks later, finally she rose up and flew across. She finally did it. But the main challenge was yet to come.

Jen hasn't seen what Elivare looked like, though Eugene had seen her and said that she looked just like Jen.

The mind is a midst of chaos.

The mind is a midst of chaos. Random thoughts about the most unimportant things. That bully in 6th grade, you remember his face perfectly and what he did and what he said to you. But do you even remember the good things that happened to you that year? Probably not. Negativity fills you up like the air fills up the balloon. Constantly comparing yourself with other people. Constantly nagging your flaws and reminding yourself how bad you are. Thinking of yourself that you are a failure and whatever in the past 18 years you have dealt with are all just mistakes. You don't think you are worthy of anything, do you? Then why are you here? Why don't you just end it? Wouldn't that simply solve the problem? You won't be feeling with those thoughts anymore, you will be free! But wait a minute. Take a step back from that scary thought. Have you noticed how many lives that has been positively affected by your presence? It may be your parents, your grandmother, or that one particular person you just became friends with, or it can be that one friend who has been with you for nearly your whole life. How would they feel if you are gone? If you have made a positive impact on them, then what would happen once you are not there anymore? Think about it.

Half a Love (Ch. 3)

Jimin felt a similar but unusual presence nearby, but he couldn't figure it out. He turned around but there was no one. "Oh well," he thought and returned back to his dorm room. He's family lived in the same city as of his college so it was easier for him to visit them. It was one of those big festivals of the city so him and his family went outside see them. It was a beautiful night with colorful lights everywhere with loud music and dance and great smell of delicious street food. Jimin was waiting for his family when suddenly he saw her, he saw her walk by on the other side.