Questioned Heart (Chapter 8)

HIM

Daaaamn..how do i even tell her my issues when she is already in sucha bad mood? I have to be on her side..I hope that kiss wont be our last.

I just went online to see if she's there but no. Seems like she is really in a bad mood. Great, I'm in a bad mood too, dammit!

'Yo bro, you okay?'
'Yeah man, i'm just..lost..ugh..i dont know'
'dude, if you not telling her then she's gonna get hurt.'
'its not even a big deal, and its not even sure if thats really gonna happen.'
'Bro, should i talk to her then?'
'NO! if she has to know then its from me.'
'Okay fine.'
'Sorry man, im just scared..i know she wont be able to handle it..it took me so long to accept it and when i told you, you were horrified too! shit! WHY DID I GOT ATTACHED TO HER, DAMMIT'
'No, its not your fault, its no ones fault. You just gotta be strong and your parents are there, I'm there for you..Its gonna be fine bro.'
'Thanks man, k got to go..tomorrows the BIG DAY.'
'K man, see you tomorrow.'

Questioned Heart (Chapter 7)

HER

'MOM! NO STOP! you cant just do this to me! Why didn't you tell me about this! STOP TALKING MOM! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!

'JEN! Listen to me! JEEEEEN!!!'

SLAMS DOOR!

I just can't believe this is happening to me. The one time i feel all happy, and life just screws up!  HOW COULD SHE DO THIS TO ME! This whole time, that was the reason she was coming late at home...oh my godd!

Questioned Heart (Chapter 6)

Both of them just gazed into each others' eyes. They didn't say a single word to each other, but they knew perfectly how they felt about each other now. Just that one kiss, and everything changes forever.
This imperfect Jen bumps into the so called dreamy boy Augustus, and the oh so dream boy who thinks he's imperfect falls for the imperfectly perfect Jennifer..

Would their love be tangled strands of feelings or the strong bond that is incapable of breaking apart? How can a girl and boy fall for each other when all they know about each other is only their names?

Questioned Heart (Chapter 5)

HIM

She still hasn't accepted my request yet..why in the world am i doing this to myself?! is this just stupidly insane or just normal? It can't be..i think i have mental issues..

After 15 minutes of feeling stupid..

NEW NOTIFICATION! 
HOLY GOD! YES SHE ACCEPTED ME! did this really take her ages to do? i mean its just a friend request, why did she have to take so long to accept it? Oh god.."GIRLS"

okay..i have to start the conversation..i mean 'guys always, mostly, makes the first move' right? cliché but oh well..

''Finally you accept me :) so sup?' ugh i shouldn't have used that smiley emoticon..she must be thinking how flirty and cheesy i am..great (-.-)
'haha yeah sorry, i didn't get time to check facebook soo..im doing good, what about you?' hmm..seems like shes lying..oh whatever
'oh its okay :) im doing good too. what you up to? :)' oh my god..why did i write in sucha a girly way..ugh this is getting worse than i expected!

After giving those formal 'what you doing' and stuff..I FINALLY had the guts to ask her to hang out with me..i mean we are chatting through the internet..thank god..or else i wouldn't even have the guts to talk to her if it was in person..phew

BUT GUESS WHAT? SHE SAID YES! (:D) okay augustus no, don't get your heads up on this..you don't know anything about her..don't jump in!


10 secs after the conversation with Jen..

i changed into the best outfit i could think of...and headed out the road..I was having goosebumps already..would she like this hang out with me? Hopefully!

Okay..i see her..she's coming in my direction..oh lord, my heart is pounding like crazy, i bet even she can hear it..it was pumping so loud! anyways..damn look at her..seriously how can someone possibly be that beautiful..not in those pretty make up type of girls..but naturally she has the charms and completely has hypnotized me..god i sound like a despo lover..great

I lead the way to her..and of course said hey and all that..she seemed so not interested but she suggested to watch a movie..hmm damn i don't understand girls a bit!
As we were headed towards the theatre, suddenly the most magical thing happened..our hands touched! holy moly! yeah it did! i couldn't help but to turn my stupid idiotic neck to her direction and smile like a stupid retard! 

I dont think she noticed so thats good..not really but oh well..we weren't that awkwardly silent but it was pretty weird..two unknown people randomly goes to hang out ..wow how completely WEIRD is that..but then suddenly she asks me a question which i possibly didn't expect her too and possibly didn't realize it myself..? why did i chose her to hang out with me at the first place? There were so many 'other' people out there to hang out and talk but WHY IN THE NAME OF GOD DID I CHOSE HER INSTEAD?! I can possibly not answer that but i just lied to her saying..

'oh umm..i dont know..i just dont like anyone out there at school..u seem nicer and much more better than other people..i tried to talk to other people but they seem not to care..so i just didnt bother..' that is a LIE. I just didn't really worry about other people other than her..i was so pulled by her..i just possibly couldn't care more about anyone except for her..thats really retarded isn't it? (-.-') and plus i payed for the tickets! WHY AM I BEING SUCHA A NICE GUY ? NICE GUYS ALWAYS FINISH LAST, guess thats what i heard..maybe im gonna be one of them soon enough..damn

Questioned Heart (Chapter 4)

HER

Damn..i feel bad now..maybe he isnt a freak after all? i dont know why im trying so hard to back off even though i really like him..it doesnt seem right..my mom these days comes home really late and goes off to work real early, i barely see her..great..ughhhh and todays a saturday..guess i should check facebook now and maybe accept him...?

After 15 minutes..

'Finally you accept me :) so sup?'
'haha yeah sorry, i didnt get time to check facebook soo..im doing good, what about you?'
'oh its okay :) im doing good too. what you up to? :)' whats with all his smiley emoticons? seriously why he acting soo weird..ugh i dont get human beings...its not even cool..

'Umm nothing really..bored as hell..what you up to?'
'me too..dont have anything to do! so bored! Hey, u wanna hang out? i would really like good company, would you mind?' oh great..okay i would go and just tell him that i dont like how hes acting so nice and all just to get to me..then and there
'ahh yeah sure ..i dont mind :) where'd you wanna meet?'
'i just live like 2 blocks away from you so..umm just down the streets?' WHAT!? how did i not realise and how does he know where i live..oh my god..this just gets weirder and weirder..i think im seriously day dreaming! (-.-)
'ohh really okay then yeah be right there in a minute'
'okay!'

Questioned Heart (Chapter 3)

Her

Since the past couple of days, i never once saw a dream of him. Not even once! How can this possibly be true? I mean all this time I used to see him and then now after i see him in reality, he's gone form my dreams..just puff gone! Is this even real or am i just going nuts or crazy or i dont know..ugh this is really annoying..REALLY

I was at home..just doing my homework and chatting with sam online, when suddenly i see a new notification...I was like WOOHOO im so populars, yeah im so cool that just one notification makes me feel like the queen bee but anyways i check what it was when suddenly it was HIM, Augustus! He added me on Facebook! This has gone too far...like seriously...why is he doing this? Does he think he's so this awesome dude with good looks and can get any girl he wants or something? Surprisingly I was mad instead of being all so excited and be like OH MY GOD...i mean yeah he's gorgeous and charming and i think i liked him but isnt he going too far? I never felt this way before, liking someone or someone liking ME back..who would possibly like me?  there is no one in this whole wide world that would...not even my mom...shes always so busy with work she barely has time for me..but anyways I just simply ignore the friend request..and continued to chat with Sam but i didnt tell her anything about it....

ThE NEXT DAY

I got up early, that was a surprise! but yeah i got up and got ready, went down straight to the kitchen and see a note..it was mom's she went off to work already..damn have to eat breakfast all alone again..great..my days of childhood and teenhood might just not end well somehow..but who cares atleast i got my drawing and Sam.. [:

Anyways..i got to the bus and sat in the alone seat of course and got out my ipod to listen to my favorite song 'First Kiss' by the Rocket to the Moon, oh How i love that band, wish i could meet them someday..HOPEFULLY FINGERS CROSSED! just while i was in my own world and feeling all so happy, i opened my eyes to see Augustus again..that blaze of anger flushed right through me..i dont know why i suddenly felt like this..i calmed down and didnt look at him at all but i knew he was looking at me..damn he's sucha stalker..I think I'm just not ready for all this..not ready for him liking me somehow and ready to fall in love..i just cant..

AFTERNOON

My life is seroiusly going on a nutshell..I was in my biology class ready to do the dissection and guess whose my lab partner now? AUGUSTUS! I was somehow happy alittle bit but that happiness just was overshadowed by the unknown anger..I just dont get it why i was so mad, was it him that i was so mad or was it something else that was really bothering me..i dont know..but he was my lab partner so yeah things were pretty awkward..

"hey, i added you in facebook..umm have you check it yet?'
'Oh yeah..umm i haven't i will today for sure'
'yeah great,  glad to know that..umm so you like dissecting stuff?'
'Yeahh surprisingly i do..i really love those bio stuff..i dont know just excites me i guess..its really a interesting thing actually, dont you think?'
"umm well yeah i guess so, im not much of a fan but i guess im starting to like it cuz you're here' he smiles at me again...Is he being sucha a flirt or really meaning it!? I dont reply and ignore it but simply just start dissecting..could he possibly just not look at me and look at the dissection instead..EVEN THE dissecting frog is prettier than me! After the class was over..i just simply took my things and just went away..without saying bye..i just couldnt deal with it..simply couldn't..I dont know if its him whose bothering me or is it the stuff going at my home..i just simply cant..

I could barely sleep that night...i didnt check my facebook cuz i would have to accept that dumb friend request..i simply tried to sleep but couldnt but i dont care...i just closed my eyes...

Questioned Heart (Chapter 2)

[This is the second chapter of Questioned Heart, if you haven't read chapter one then better read that first! (: ]