Questioned Heart (Chapter 9)

So sorry for this really late post! This is the 9th chapter of Questioned Heart! Enjoy! :D


He saw her..it was just like the first time..those dark, memorising eyes staring right back at him. He knew everything was going to change now..he loved her and whether she liked it or not, she has to be part of this too. It was meant to be.

She knew nothing. What was going on and how everything is going to change, she didn't know. She just stared back at him.. Is he the same Augustus, who she dreamt of? Who is he now? What is happening? She couldn't figure out the answers, yet. Whatever happens, she knows that they are meant to be, she loves him too, but would this change the love they once had?

Questioned Heart (Chapter 8)

HIM

Daaaamn..how do i even tell her my issues when she is already in sucha bad mood? I have to be on her side..I hope that kiss wont be our last.

I just went online to see if she's there but no. Seems like she is really in a bad mood. Great, I'm in a bad mood too, dammit!

'Yo bro, you okay?'
'Yeah man, i'm just..lost..ugh..i dont know'
'dude, if you not telling her then she's gonna get hurt.'
'its not even a big deal, and its not even sure if thats really gonna happen.'
'Bro, should i talk to her then?'
'NO! if she has to know then its from me.'
'Okay fine.'
'Sorry man, im just scared..i know she wont be able to handle it..it took me so long to accept it and when i told you, you were horrified too! shit! WHY DID I GOT ATTACHED TO HER, DAMMIT'
'No, its not your fault, its no ones fault. You just gotta be strong and your parents are there, I'm there for you..Its gonna be fine bro.'
'Thanks man, k got to go..tomorrows the BIG DAY.'
'K man, see you tomorrow.'

Questioned Heart (Chapter 7)

HER

'MOM! NO STOP! you cant just do this to me! Why didn't you tell me about this! STOP TALKING MOM! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!

'JEN! Listen to me! JEEEEEN!!!'

SLAMS DOOR!

I just can't believe this is happening to me. The one time i feel all happy, and life just screws up!  HOW COULD SHE DO THIS TO ME! This whole time, that was the reason she was coming late at home...oh my godd!

Questioned Heart (Chapter 6)

Both of them just gazed into each others' eyes. They didn't say a single word to each other, but they knew perfectly how they felt about each other now. Just that one kiss, and everything changes forever.
This imperfect Jen bumps into the so called dreamy boy Augustus, and the oh so dream boy who thinks he's imperfect falls for the imperfectly perfect Jennifer..

Would their love be tangled strands of feelings or the strong bond that is incapable of breaking apart? How can a girl and boy fall for each other when all they know about each other is only their names?

Questioned Heart (Chapter 5)

HIM

She still hasn't accepted my request yet..why in the world am i doing this to myself?! is this just stupidly insane or just normal? It can't be..i think i have mental issues..

After 15 minutes of feeling stupid..

NEW NOTIFICATION! 
HOLY GOD! YES SHE ACCEPTED ME! did this really take her ages to do? i mean its just a friend request, why did she have to take so long to accept it? Oh god.."GIRLS"

okay..i have to start the conversation..i mean 'guys always, mostly, makes the first move' right? cliché but oh well..

''Finally you accept me :) so sup?' ugh i shouldn't have used that smiley emoticon..she must be thinking how flirty and cheesy i am..great (-.-)
'haha yeah sorry, i didn't get time to check facebook soo..im doing good, what about you?' hmm..seems like shes lying..oh whatever
'oh its okay :) im doing good too. what you up to? :)' oh my god..why did i write in sucha a girly way..ugh this is getting worse than i expected!

After giving those formal 'what you doing' and stuff..I FINALLY had the guts to ask her to hang out with me..i mean we are chatting through the internet..thank god..or else i wouldn't even have the guts to talk to her if it was in person..phew

BUT GUESS WHAT? SHE SAID YES! (:D) okay augustus no, don't get your heads up on this..you don't know anything about her..don't jump in!


10 secs after the conversation with Jen..

i changed into the best outfit i could think of...and headed out the road..I was having goosebumps already..would she like this hang out with me? Hopefully!

Okay..i see her..she's coming in my direction..oh lord, my heart is pounding like crazy, i bet even she can hear it..it was pumping so loud! anyways..damn look at her..seriously how can someone possibly be that beautiful..not in those pretty make up type of girls..but naturally she has the charms and completely has hypnotized me..god i sound like a despo lover..great

I lead the way to her..and of course said hey and all that..she seemed so not interested but she suggested to watch a movie..hmm damn i don't understand girls a bit!
As we were headed towards the theatre, suddenly the most magical thing happened..our hands touched! holy moly! yeah it did! i couldn't help but to turn my stupid idiotic neck to her direction and smile like a stupid retard! 

I dont think she noticed so thats good..not really but oh well..we weren't that awkwardly silent but it was pretty weird..two unknown people randomly goes to hang out ..wow how completely WEIRD is that..but then suddenly she asks me a question which i possibly didn't expect her too and possibly didn't realize it myself..? why did i chose her to hang out with me at the first place? There were so many 'other' people out there to hang out and talk but WHY IN THE NAME OF GOD DID I CHOSE HER INSTEAD?! I can possibly not answer that but i just lied to her saying..

'oh umm..i dont know..i just dont like anyone out there at school..u seem nicer and much more better than other people..i tried to talk to other people but they seem not to care..so i just didnt bother..' that is a LIE. I just didn't really worry about other people other than her..i was so pulled by her..i just possibly couldn't care more about anyone except for her..thats really retarded isn't it? (-.-') and plus i payed for the tickets! WHY AM I BEING SUCHA A NICE GUY ? NICE GUYS ALWAYS FINISH LAST, guess thats what i heard..maybe im gonna be one of them soon enough..damn

Questioned Heart (Chapter 4)

HER

Damn..i feel bad now..maybe he isnt a freak after all? i dont know why im trying so hard to back off even though i really like him..it doesnt seem right..my mom these days comes home really late and goes off to work real early, i barely see her..great..ughhhh and todays a saturday..guess i should check facebook now and maybe accept him...?

After 15 minutes..

'Finally you accept me :) so sup?'
'haha yeah sorry, i didnt get time to check facebook soo..im doing good, what about you?'
'oh its okay :) im doing good too. what you up to? :)' whats with all his smiley emoticons? seriously why he acting soo weird..ugh i dont get human beings...its not even cool..

'Umm nothing really..bored as hell..what you up to?'
'me too..dont have anything to do! so bored! Hey, u wanna hang out? i would really like good company, would you mind?' oh great..okay i would go and just tell him that i dont like how hes acting so nice and all just to get to me..then and there
'ahh yeah sure ..i dont mind :) where'd you wanna meet?'
'i just live like 2 blocks away from you so..umm just down the streets?' WHAT!? how did i not realise and how does he know where i live..oh my god..this just gets weirder and weirder..i think im seriously day dreaming! (-.-)
'ohh really okay then yeah be right there in a minute'
'okay!'

Questioned Heart (Chapter 3)

Her

Since the past couple of days, i never once saw a dream of him. Not even once! How can this possibly be true? I mean all this time I used to see him and then now after i see him in reality, he's gone form my dreams..just puff gone! Is this even real or am i just going nuts or crazy or i dont know..ugh this is really annoying..REALLY

I was at home..just doing my homework and chatting with sam online, when suddenly i see a new notification...I was like WOOHOO im so populars, yeah im so cool that just one notification makes me feel like the queen bee but anyways i check what it was when suddenly it was HIM, Augustus! He added me on Facebook! This has gone too far...like seriously...why is he doing this? Does he think he's so this awesome dude with good looks and can get any girl he wants or something? Surprisingly I was mad instead of being all so excited and be like OH MY GOD...i mean yeah he's gorgeous and charming and i think i liked him but isnt he going too far? I never felt this way before, liking someone or someone liking ME back..who would possibly like me?  there is no one in this whole wide world that would...not even my mom...shes always so busy with work she barely has time for me..but anyways I just simply ignore the friend request..and continued to chat with Sam but i didnt tell her anything about it....

ThE NEXT DAY

I got up early, that was a surprise! but yeah i got up and got ready, went down straight to the kitchen and see a note..it was mom's she went off to work already..damn have to eat breakfast all alone again..great..my days of childhood and teenhood might just not end well somehow..but who cares atleast i got my drawing and Sam.. [:

Anyways..i got to the bus and sat in the alone seat of course and got out my ipod to listen to my favorite song 'First Kiss' by the Rocket to the Moon, oh How i love that band, wish i could meet them someday..HOPEFULLY FINGERS CROSSED! just while i was in my own world and feeling all so happy, i opened my eyes to see Augustus again..that blaze of anger flushed right through me..i dont know why i suddenly felt like this..i calmed down and didnt look at him at all but i knew he was looking at me..damn he's sucha stalker..I think I'm just not ready for all this..not ready for him liking me somehow and ready to fall in love..i just cant..

AFTERNOON

My life is seroiusly going on a nutshell..I was in my biology class ready to do the dissection and guess whose my lab partner now? AUGUSTUS! I was somehow happy alittle bit but that happiness just was overshadowed by the unknown anger..I just dont get it why i was so mad, was it him that i was so mad or was it something else that was really bothering me..i dont know..but he was my lab partner so yeah things were pretty awkward..

"hey, i added you in facebook..umm have you check it yet?'
'Oh yeah..umm i haven't i will today for sure'
'yeah great,  glad to know that..umm so you like dissecting stuff?'
'Yeahh surprisingly i do..i really love those bio stuff..i dont know just excites me i guess..its really a interesting thing actually, dont you think?'
"umm well yeah i guess so, im not much of a fan but i guess im starting to like it cuz you're here' he smiles at me again...Is he being sucha a flirt or really meaning it!? I dont reply and ignore it but simply just start dissecting..could he possibly just not look at me and look at the dissection instead..EVEN THE dissecting frog is prettier than me! After the class was over..i just simply took my things and just went away..without saying bye..i just couldnt deal with it..simply couldn't..I dont know if its him whose bothering me or is it the stuff going at my home..i just simply cant..

I could barely sleep that night...i didnt check my facebook cuz i would have to accept that dumb friend request..i simply tried to sleep but couldnt but i dont care...i just closed my eyes...

Questioned Heart (Chapter 2)

[This is the second chapter of Questioned Heart, if you haven't read chapter one then better read that first! (: ]

Flawed!(:

Ever felt like a champion? Or a Warrior, when you accomplish or face something that you never thought you would? Yup, I have and I know you have too. Everyone feels like a warrior or a champion at some point of their life. Most people become one too to save their country while some become one to save themselves.

I practically had no reason to name my blog 'The Warrior Champ." It just came right into my mind and now after realizing that i chose it I seem to have a reason for it too.

Every teenager feel like a small tiny little nobody when they are at this monstrous massive place called high school. I of course have felt like that many times, regardless how nice some people were and no matter how hard they tried to reach out to be friends with me. In the end you are your only friend whether its surviving through high school or when you go out beyond your comfy zone. 

You start to believe that your mistakes overshadow your potentials, but that's not true..Not at all! No matter how hard we try, we are never going to be perfect and Perfect is seriously really boring! If you have nothing to improve, nothing to learn just because your perfect then how boring is it gonna be? If you have flaws that doesn't mean that you are small or weak, it just means your different and unique from everyone else. (: Some people may have disabilities but still they are capable of making the best of their life. If you are beautiful in the inside, then automatically you are beautiful from the outside(:

So, i guess that's the reason for naming this blog 'The warrior champ'
You are your own Warriors and Champs, so stay happy and stay flawed! (;

~ Warrior Champ

I am

This is a short poem i wrote a couple weeks back(: Enjoy!

I am

~ Jasmine Bajracharya aka Warrior Champ (;

I am the color of cherry red raspberries that grows in the wild forest

I am like the gust of color and brightness full of hope and promises

I am invincible and quiet yet strong like the cool gale that blows in the night beach

I am like the dark blue during midnight and the vibrant pink in the sunrise

I am like the sunset that subsides peacefully in the deep blue sea

I am like the droplets of purple rain that bounces off cheerfully on the hard concrete ground

I am a tsunami of emotions that sweeps away everything around me

I am the beat of the drum and the strum of the guitar that harmonizes with the song

I am like a crab that hides behind its shell but comes out when it’s safe.

I am a book, unknown and mysterious when closed, and a surprise when open.

Chick Flicks - Questioned Heart (Chapter One)

Isn't there always a small spot for reading chick flicks? i mean who doesn't love reading them? I just love it..no matter the same content over and over again, still its arousing to read them with all enthusiasm and excitement!

I'm soon gonna write one too!(: a small short one most probably:) want to read it now?
YOu sure are lucky then! :D Here it goes .....



Questioned Heart (Chapter 1)

The splash of cool water trickles down my face as i walk my way back home. Its 5 in the afternoon, everybody rushing back to their homes from work or school. Like them, Im walking back home too, but i don't wanna leave the rain...the water droplets trickling down my shirt and them hanging on my eyelashes making me hard to see, but still i don't wanna leave the rain. I see him across the road..his face glowing perfectly even in the rain. I can't help but stare and keep on staring at that glowing face. Everything else is a blur and all i can see is him. I walk closer and closer but he moves far away..I spread my hand out to touch him but then...

TRIN TRIN!! The alarm clock goes off! (-.-)
I wake up feeling all dizzy, and realize that him was just a dream. Disappointed. Again. For the FIFTH TIME i'm getting this same dream over and over again, but I can never realize who HIM was because I always wake up the time i go near to touch him..Great! (-.-)

Anyways...back to reality, Mom calls,

"Honeyy! You'll be late for school! Come down Breakfast's ready!"

Me, "OKayyyy MOMSIE! COMING!'

This you see is my usual routine. Seeing HIM, and then getting late for school. And today apparently is the first day of school too! Saveee me God!

Surprisingly the bus hadn't come yet! PHEW! what a relief!

After waiting for a couple of minutes i see this big yellow bus, which of course is the bus im going to...so there it was that big yellow bus which i hate it the most, not because it was huge and ugly but because of the people inside the bus. I dont understand why human beings act so mean when they see a new person (me, apparently) anywhere, especially in the bus...like I'm an alien or something. BUt anyways i just hop in and find a seat where no ones there..

Just as i sat in one of the spare seats, I was just taking my ipod out when suddenly i see HIM..FOR REAL HIM! That HIM who i saw in my dreams, that HIM who i can never touch or come near too. I COULDN'T BELIEVE MY EYES that IM SEEING HIM! Good Gracious, is this a dream still? 

Oh no IT ISN'T!

HOLY CRAP! He saw my staring at him, and he walks right past me and sits in another spare sit! PHEW that was close! 

OH MY GOD! i cant believe my eyes that i saw HIM. I dont know who he is and how in the world i kept seeing him in my dreams..this is CREEPING THE POTATO OUTTA ME!

yeah you heard me, I SAID POTATO! (-.-)

OKayyy..so i cool down..took a deep breath and listened to some soothing music and just forgot about that moment for a while. 

As time flew by, I reached school and got out quick as possible so that I wouldn't have to encounter HIM!
I just ran out the bus and went in search to find my best friend Samantha. I gotta tell her everything!

'Samantha!' I yell out, and she turns around and sees me and runs in to give me a hug! (aww)

As we got to our lockers, I finished telling Sam every little thing that happened today morning..

Samantha: "You gotta be day dreaming JEN..How IN THE WORLD WOULD IT BE the SO CALLED HIM!?'

Me: I DONT KNOW! i swear I SAW HIM..It was reallY HIM!

S: Fine! okay! we'll see!

So we proceed to our English class and got to our seats. And right when i was taking my books out i see someone similar coming in the class. I looked up and GUESS WHAT?
ITS HIM!! I could't believe my EYES that HIM was also in this same CLASS!

And then suddenly i realize that my mouth was wide open and again he saw me staring at him and he looks at me and SMILES! Yeah! HIM smiled at me! OH MY GOD!

As i was staring at him stupidly, he walks right to me, reaches out his hand and says,
'Hi, I am Augustus.'

Hello :)

Hey There!

This is my first time making a blog..
okay i don't know why i wanted to do this but i just decided to :P im totally blank right now ..Ummmm

Hmm..

okay so..Yeahh I love writing! :D this seems so vague but yeah i do. I dont know what i would end up writing but i am sure im gonna write some good stuff soon.

Just wait, be patient

Heeeereeee I coomee!

~ Warrior Champ